My Philosophy


-This page is to be a diary, well not really, maybe just daily thoughts that cross my mind as significant or important. I am at my most vunerable here though, so be careful. Later!
11/23/96
Nothing really matters. So Get Over It!
11/24/96
Well I thought about it a little more and well, things do matter. Tonight at youth group we discussed what people really want in life and what we hit upon were that everyone really wants to be loved, accepted and feel as they belong. My point here as that we are all insecure. We all want to belong, therefore we all conform to a certain degree. I am not scolding anyone, for I am guilty of this as well. But there is beauty in this insecurity. Truly the fact that we are all imperfect and cannot make it alone is very humbling. We all have an emptiness that can only be filled by God, not anything that society or materialism can bring. We spend are whole life trying to please ourselves and others and end up digging a shallow grave. Think about it. We are all insecure.
12/14/96
I know it has been a while so I have a couple thoughts. First of all last night I spent some time with Football great Walter Payton. He was speaking in town for my father's company and I was the appointed guy to pick him up at the airport. First of all I had a lot of preconceived notions, but the last thing I wanted to do was make a fool of myself. But after 5 minutes in the car with the man, he made both me and my friend Ryan fell like we'd known him for 20 years. Making fun of Ryan's driving ability or anything else he could; he helped to lighten the air. He was a confident man, and created a pleasant atmosphere just by being around him. What a great guy, I guess that's why they call him sweetness. Anyway he said a couple things that I thought I'd share. Laughing is a good way to get rid of nervousness or frustration. He said that frustrated people get no where. This is a good point. How many times do we let the little things get to us? Think about it. We let the little insignificant details spoil the life we should be living and the freedom we enjoy. He told us to be ourselves and work to the best of your own ability. Don't worry where everyone else is or "what they have on their plate" but worry about what your goals and capabilities are; never selling yourself short. He also talked about the numerous charities that he had been apart of. He said we should be giving 100% of the time. He said that kids aren't stupid and that they catch on if the only time your showing up to help out is at Christmas and at Thanksgiving. We must be prepared to give back all the time. He put this very well, and it was an experience I will never forget. The latter of his statements really hit home. I mean I always love Christmas time but as a human I should live this way 365 days of the year. We really should. Later. - Brett M.
12/17/96
Its around 5:00 am now. I have been up all night, attempting to study for my English exam tomorrow. Anyway trash can are starting to move and words not make sense. It is gonna be a rough day. Oh well. Funny story: Last year during mid terms I am up late at night and Jars of Clay's "Flood" comes on MTV. I was stunned, this being the first Christian video I have ever seen on MTV. Then tonight I am thinking about how everyone says that dc Talk's "Just Between You and Me" is on the air. So I watch and I watch, but no video. Then as I walk downstairs really late I flick on the TV and low and behold it is dc Talk! What a thrill. Pretty much the highlight of my night. Peace. -BRett M.
8/15/97

Tonight was the last night that I would spend the night in this house. Tomorrow I will be leaving for college and my parents are moving in the fall. This will also be one of the last times that I live under my parents roof. Sure I will later when school is not in session but things still will be different, there is no denying that.

I decided to take a walk this evening to a place I have often gone. Here in Belleair, FL about three streets over is the water and these beautiful bluffs that overlook Clearwater Bay. It is a beautiful display both day and night and extremely peaceful. Often friends and I would travel down there for a late night talk or something of the sort. I remember one time a friend and I walked down there with our acoustics and played music while it drizzled. It was beautiful. Now this being my last night in this house and at home before I head off to college I was beginning to feel a little nostalgic. The sky seemed very low, almost tangible. It was beautiful. All I could think of was how peaceful it was and how when I was a child I would listen to the birds. Often I would wake early and tape them on a tape recorder. The birds early were truly beautiful to listen to.

As I walked tonight everything came back and an incredible peace seem to come over me. It was one of the most wonderful experiences ever. I lost touch with fear for a small time. I will miss all that I am leaving behind, but look forward to the future and all that it holds.
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