Our love and deepest sympathy goes to...

From Linna
lmerrill1@cox.net  My sister died of HELLP nine months ago.  It is still hard to believe.  I received a phone call to tell me she had had a seizure and the baby was being delivered via c-section.  Four hours later, she was dead.  I need to do something about this disease to help others not have to go through this and make her death not so senseless.
This has been so extremely hard.  Tricia was my life-long best friend.  It is so difficult to deal with the void that is now in my life.  I would like to help in any way that I can.  I feel so strongly that I have to do something good out of this bad situation.   My sister's baby made it.  They spent five minutes resuscitating her at birth, but she is fat and healthy and so beautiful. 
  I would truly enjoy sharing with someone else who has experienced the loss that I have.  Thank you again for your kindness.

From Angie
stlmelonhead@charter.net I had HELLP syndrome and lost my baby on July 21, 2005.  My liver enzymes were going up really high and I had to have a blood transfusion.  I am trying to figure out what went wrong or if I could have done something to prevent this.  I was only 21 weeks and the baby passed away before she was delivered. 

I just read the emails you sent me; thank you.  I really need to talk to people who have been through this.  It is really taking a toll on me.  I have five kids and she was going to be my sixth.  I am truly lost now that this happened.  Everyone keeps telling me that I have five more.  But I lost one on July 21 and I don't understand why this happened.  I have blamed myself for a week and then stopped and then started to again.  My husband seems to be moving forward.  I am the one having trouble moving forward.  I went to her grave on my birthday and I looked around to see all the babies that had passed away. It helps me because sometimes I feel this has happened to only me.  I just don't understand this whole thing.  I wish I could, and if you have answers I think this would help.  I know I had preeclampsia with my last one and it wasn't so bad.  I had him at 36 weeks and he will be three in November.  The baby I lost was going to be born on his birthday. I had diabetes with him too.  My health is getting back to normal from this last pregnancy.  My liver enzymes are a little elevated but seem to be going down.  I still have headaches and I feel really drained.  I would like to talk to others who have had another pregnancy